Sometimes, in our lives, God takes us down paths we would least likely expect.
If someone had told me as little as two years ago that I would be developing a website called The Whisper of God and writing inspirational and spiritual messages, I might have thought they were crazy. But that is exactly what I find myself doing now - a lot of writing and really enjoying it.
In the back of my mind I had always had the urge to write.
I am sure we have all been in a position where we have been working hard to accomplish something; you invest hours and hours into reaching a goal, finishing a project, studying for an exam… only to find that as you are nearing the finish line you start to question yourself.
You start to wonder: am I good enough, smart enough, will people listen to or like me…
Self-doubt creeps into the back of your mind and you start to question yourself. You start to lose confidence in your ability to carry through to your goal.
Earlier in my professional life I had a fear of rejection.
I think it might have had to do with how I was trained at a large accounting firm that I previously worked for. At that firm, we were required to report every week how many new people we met, where we met them, and how successful we were in getting them as a new client. Not that I wasn’t able to talk to people; on the contrary, I am very personable and can talk to anyone in almost any situation. However, if we didn’t get them as a client, we had to explain why and what we could have done better. It got to the point where I started to really dislike reporting my activities because you had to explain why you weren’t always 100% successful.
One day, after I started my own firm, a salesman, with whom I had been doing business for quite awhile, came into my office. Because I always enjoyed learning other people’s strategies for getting new clients, sometimes he and I would sit and talk about sales techniques.
When I was younger, I never really understood what it meant to be a “glass is half-empty” versus a “glass is half-full” type of person. Was one better than the other? Which one were we supposed to be? Through my life, things have happened that have helped me learn the difference between the two.
In February of 2008, I was invited to a black tie affair by a good friend of mine for the hospital where he is the Chief of Staff. I had gone to this event with him many times and always had a good time. I went out and bought a tux, had it tailored, got my shoes, and was all set to go. That night, just before I started to get ready, I told Sharon that I didn’t really feel like going.
Sharon and I talked about it and she told me that if I didn’t want to go that it was okay with her – we could just hang out at the house that night and watch a movie. As I hemmed and hawed about what I should do, I started to have this nagging feeling that I really should go. Something was telling me that you never know who you can meet at one of these things. So we got dressed and went.
While I was standing at my front door this morning looking outside I spotted a little moth flying around. The sun was hitting its wings at just the right angle to light it up and made it look like it was iridescent. I don’t know why this caught my attention but I watched the moth for a minute as it just fluttered around.
And then a bird swooped by and ate the moth.
It made me start to think about the moth and the fact that he was just floating around, maybe going somewhere – maybe going no where in particular, but just floating around minding his own business. And along came the bird and the moth was history.
